Chronic Illness Makes You Do Some Soul Searching

Believing that everything happens for a reason is something I feel pretty strongly about. In some ways, I always felt this way but as the years of suffering following my ulcerative colitis diagnosis continued without any end in sight, I started to wonder. 

I began wondering how that belief system could even pan out with all the traumatic things going on in not only my world, but in other people’s lives as well. I watched the news a great deal when I was recovering from flare ups, procedures, surgery,etc (in addition to sitcoms, of course :) ) and just felt like I was inundated with murder, rapes, terrorism, random acts of violence that destroy an entire family, etc. 

The world became and still is in a lot of ways, a scary place for me. In this post here, I talk a lot about how being a sick child can impact your views as you enter adulthood. 

A couple years ago, I met someone who showed me that things sort of had to happen for a reason. Whether you believe in God or something/someone else, it has truly been shown to me that the people who enter our lives do so for a purpose. There is meaning to everyone we meet and when we meet them. Even if we don’t realize what that reason is while its occurring or years later, there is some rhyme or reason for things that occur. 

I’m honestly semi talking about Inflammatory Bowel Disease and chronic illness life and semi not. In other words, I think this applies to life in general … For everyone. 

We all come with baggage. It may not be illness but we all come with something that we deal with/struggle with in our lives. The key is surrounding yourself with people who can help you with those challenges. 

As we all know, many individuals just can’t emotionally handle a lot of what people with Crohn’s Disease or Ulcerative Colitis go through. Either that or they don’t have the capacity to understand how physically and emotionally complex everything we deal with is. It doesn’t make them bad people or insensitive people – it could just mean they haven’t had the experiences that were/are needed to be that person for you. 

I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and so much has come out in my head. I don’t want this post to be all over the place but I did want to share a little bit about where my head is now. 


Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Do you feel we meet people because we are supposed to or do friendships/relationships come by chance? Any personal experiences you’d like to share? 

If you’d like to write a guest post about anything IBD related, please email me at marisa@journalingIBD.org