After writing about living with chronic pain, I started thinking that there were so many other areas that this topic creeps into.
When you are in a lot of pain, sleep is generally an issue. When sleep is an issue, you are usually tired throughout the day. When you are feeling lethargic (and sometimes moody due to lack of sleep), you reach for unhealthy foods. When your diet becomes filled with too much unhealthy crap, you begin to feel guilty and kinda bad about yourself. Add to that, lack of sleep doesn’t usually make you pumped for the gym. Vicious cycle.
This aspect of pain is really getting to me now. I love going to the gym when I am feeling well (and a lot of times when I don’t). Working out makes me feel good about myself. It clears my head and helps me a tremendous amount, not only physically but emotionally too. More emotionally I think. Lately, I haven’t been getting more than a couple hours of sleep a night. My migraines are bad. I am not working out. I am reaching for unhealthy snacks because I need energy. I feel like a lazy bum and I HATE IT.
I wish I had some words of wisdom about this. But I just needed to get it out. I know how much reading some other peoples “rants” helps me to know I am not alone.
It does help me to break things down a little bit though. I know everything feeds off each other. If I could deal with my pain, I would sleep better. Or, if I could deal with sleep maybe my pain would be a little easier to manage. And once sleep and pain management is dealt with, the other things will fall into place. It is just getting there that is hard.