Day 6: Letters

Write a letter to an older you (tell us what age you are!). What do you want to ask yourself? What lesson do you want to make sure you remember?

Dear (95 year old) Marisa,

I feel like my entire existence has been in preparation for the moment that you stand today; the point in our life when every thing is finally figured out. And I have a sneaking suspicion that you still feel unsettled. Figures.

Anyway, this is kind of weird for me. I have written letters to a younger me before but never to future me. I have so many questions for you but the one I really need answered is AM I GOING TO BE OKAY?

Does the fighting ever stop? Will Mom and Dad end up living out their golden years free to enjoy life and each other? Will my relationship with Jeremy ever be what we both know it would have been if I never got sick? Do we ever get to the point where I don’t feel like I am living on edge all of the time? Please tell me you’ve been able to achieve some kind of inner peace! When? Before we turn 30??

We have never been the kind of person who is able to enjoy each day for so many reasons. We are goal oriented so our eyes focus on the prize and not the actual journey. I know I am not changing you in that respect but if I can get you to stop and slow down just a tiny bit, I would call this letter a success.

Love Always,

(26 year old) Marisa

Ps. You know I am really impatient so if you could get back to me with those questions answered as soon as possible, that would really alleviate a lot of my anxiety :)

just breate

  • Jodi

    Just breathe… you are on the way there….Thank you for sharing and being so open about your thoughts and feelings.